A New Reality

Back in 2003 Brad and I decided we were ready to try and have our first child. One month later we were pregnant, one month later we announced it and never looked back. The same situation happened when we were ready to have our second child. It was such a time of excitement and planning. Mother's Days took on a whole new meaning for me when my children were born. It meant celebrating, not only my mother, but now, me and the privilege I had of being a mom.

This year, however, Mother's Day has taken on a whole new meaning and brought so many different emotions. I am so thankful for my mom and what she does for me and means to me. I am so grateful and realize how blessed to have been chosen to be a mom to Laci and Megan. I never want to take that for granted. I am also full of excitement (and morning sickness) as Brad and I are expecting our 3rd child. But, with all that excitement, the events of the last year have brought new emotions and a sensitivity for so many others. I hope that when God takes me through trials, I never miss what he is trying to teach me. And, one thing I believe God taught me through the loss of my niece and a miscarriage shortly after, was to be sensitive to those who are longing to be parents or who have lost a child. I have learned that so many people struggle with infertility and/or have miscarriages. I have experienced (and still experiencing through Sarah) this emotional roller coaster of trying to get pregnant.

My heart breaks for my sister. As grateful as I am to be a mom, I want this day to come and go for her sake, so she does not have to cry or hurt. I know there are many others who have lost a child and/or who are longing for a baby. Today, I lift you up.

I will post periodically about baby #3 and we look forward to each and every time we get to hear the heartbeat, but through it all I want to always be sensitive to those who long for a child of their own or who have lost a child. And, through all of the ups and downs of this pregnancy, I want to give God the glory.

Praise God for Mother's and what they mean to us all.

Happy Mother's Day